Since tonight to going to be strange for me emotionally, I'm just going to post everything that I've meant to post for the last month.

Number One.
A conversation I had with Countrybird that I thought was worth sharing:
Countrybird: wow, my parents must really miss me
Morrigana: they probably only realized after they saw you
Morrigana: that they missed you sooooo soooooo very much
Countrybird: heeheehee
Morrigana: i never realize i miss you until i see you
Countrybird: I think its one of those things were they could look FORWARD to seeing me and now there are no more plans to come out here and so they realized how long it is until summer
Morrigana: aawwwwww
Countrybird: awww I miss you sometimes too
Morrigana: ya know how like sometimes you miss a person when you're hugging them?
Countrybird: yeah
Countrybird: tottally
Countrybird: or you dont realize you miss them until you call them
Morrigana: ya well, i never feel that way with you
Morrigana: (i'm laughing histerically at this end, FYI)
Countrybird: you weirdo
Morrigana: i love you
Morrigana: no, sometimes i do miss you when you;re sitting across the table talking with some one else
Countrybird: hahaha
Countrybird: oh you silly goose
Morrigana: maybe thats jealousy
Countrybird: heheheheeeeeeeeeeeee
Countrybird: that makes me giggle
Morrigana: oh good

Number Two:
A Poem I wrote which tells the story of Morrigana, goddess of the Tuatha De Danann, who defeated Cu Chulainn at the fields of Mag Tuireadh.
Morrigana

Celtic goddess, red hair’d, old crow,
Of three you take my sword from me.
The gift of friend, the fear of foe,
Alight you witch on yonder tree.

I’ll tell your tale of death and life,
From the high wind and the low lake.
Firbolg slayer, mother and wife,
Revengeful of the ones we make.

Sent thee, Cu Chulainn to his grave,
A thousand men did not him break,
With careless words his fate did pave,
One woman, fair, his life did take.

Raven woman, dressèd in black,
What do you carry in your sack?

To him you went in splendid youth.
Long red, thick hair, high cheeks, soft lips,
On bended knee you spoke the truth.
Around your neck hung fair cowslips.

Between your hands you took his face,
Upon his lips to plant a kiss,
I love you, Cu Chulainn, sweet grace;
Into his ear you whisper’d this.

He push’d you from his gentle touch
Away you flew in wing’d frenzy
Never before expirenc’d such
From one used to being choosey.

Raven woman, dressèd in black,
What do you carry in your sack?

As the battle was raging on
You hatched yourself a vengeful plan.
Just before the morning’s pale dawn
From the river came a Scotsman.

In his teeth a rusty old knife
The most cunning of a decoy
Him sent by you to stop this strife
Quickly kill Cu Chulainn, young boy.

From Cu Chulainn came the first blood
Through his shoulder pierc’d cold copper
Pouring forth into red wet mud
You would rescue him, Earth Stopper.

Raven woman, dressèd in black,
What do you carry in your sack?

As an old hag you went to him
Healing blessings to him offered
When his future lookèd near grim
From help he would have just proffered

Away you went leaving him cursed
A second time he saw not you
Only heading into the worst
Of the troubles that would ensue

Before the last battle was fought
You took his shirt to mark for death
You wash it with the water fraught
Of the souls who not more draw breath

Raven woman, dressèd in black,
What do you carry in your sack?

He dressed himself in your clean robe, wrappèd his sword around his waist
He was too soon to leave this globe
Upon him soon she, death, made haste

He lay alone in the cold mud
As his body lost all its heat
And all around saturat’d with blood
That time was when he knew defeat

In shape of bird on him you sat
To show the world your true power
You won, at last, this long savate
Still reign supreme in the last hour

Raven women, dressed in black,
The lives of dead men in your sack.

Number Three.
Massive amounts of venting.
I'm just so frusterated by so much right now. The end of the school year is so close I can taste it, but I dont' want to go back to LA because I don't like the person I am in LA. I really want to stay in NYC, but money is an issue and even though I have a job its not really enough. Then my job. My job. I really do like working at Barnes and Noble. I also like the people. No problems there. But what happens if I go back to LA. Then I have to get a transfer. I have to tell them that soon. If I don't I'll just switch to full time for the summer, which I'm sure they won't mind at all, but that requires me to be here. Oh, the arguement is circle.
Secondly, my face. I know, I know. Young girls always complain about their faces. But listen. Its not pimply or anything. It just burns and I don't spend time in the sun. I'm worried I have Lupus. My mother has Lupus and I know she worries I have Lupus and now I'm worried. Also, so my face hurts and is red, I had those hand pains a month or so ago, my whole body feel off kind of and I've been kind of shaky over the last few days. I think I should go get tested, even though I was tested 2 years ago, but I don't want to worry my mom. I know her worst nightmare is that my sister or I have Lupus. Anyway, on the note.

Number Four.
A play. I wrote. Which is kind of based on my experiences growing up.

SISTERHOOD IN FIVE MINUTES

Older(2) and Younger(0).

OLDER Mommy, what’s that? (stop and wait as if listening for a response) I don’t want a little sister.
YOUNGER (cries like a small baby)
OLDER Mommy, watch me dance.Older does a little dance.
They age three years.
OLDER Now, we’re going to have a tea party and I get the pretty hat and you get the other hat.
YOUNGER Okay.
OLDER And I’m going to wear the pink dress and you get the blue one.
YOUNGER Okay.
They age three more years.
OLDER I’m going to be Wendy for Halloween and you can be Peter Pan.
YOUNGER Okay.
OLDER So, you’re a boy.
YOUNGER No, I’m a girl.
OLDER But Peter Pan’s a boy.
YOUNGER In the movie Peter Pan’s a girl.
OLDER But in real life Peter Pan’s a boy.
YOUNGER I don’t want to be a boy.
OLDERYou have to be a boy because I said so.
YOUNGER No.
OLDER You have to be Peter Pan.
Older pushes Younger. Younger starts to cry. They age two more years.
OLDER You were an accident. Mom told me.
YOUNGER No, I wasn’t.
OLDER Yes, you were.
YOUNGER Mom and Dad had me because they messed up with you and they wanted a better child.
OLDER No, they had you because I am so wonderful they wanted another one, but miracles don’t strike twice in the same place.
YOUNGERI hate you.
OLDER I hate you more.
YOUNGER I’ve hated you longer.
OLDER I’ve hated you since you were born.
They age two more years. Younger is crying and Older is trying to comfort her.
OLDER Shhh. Go to sleep.
YOUNGER You think Mom will be all right?
OLDER She’ll be all right. They’re going to make her feel better.
YOUNGER When will she be better?
OLDER I don’t know. Soon. The doctors are working really hard.
YOUNGER What’s wrong with her?
OLDER I don’t know.
OUNGER Will Daddy fly home to be with us?
OLDER He has to work to pay for Mom to be in the Hospital.
YOUNGER I’m scared.
OLDER Its okay. Shhh. Go to sleep. I’ll stay here. I’m right here.
They age three more years.
YOUNGER Hey, can we talk?
OLDER I’m kinda busy. I’ve got a lot of homework due tomorrow.
YOUNGER I’ll be really fast. Please?
OLDER Okay. Quick.
YOUNGER I got my period.
Facetiously sweet.
OLDER Oh sweetie. Congratulations.
YOUNGER Thanks.
OLDER My little baby’s growing up.
YOUNGER Okay. Stop.
OLDER It really sucks doesn’t it?
YOUNGER Hey, it sucks a lot. I don’t want to grow up.
OLDER You don’t have a choice.
They age four more years. On the phone.
OLDER Hey, how are you?
YOUNGER Okay. I miss you.
OLDER I miss you too.
YOUNGER I wanted to go shopping with you.
OLDER You never want to go shopping, I always had to drag you.
YOUNGER I know.
They age ten years.Older is pregnant.
OLDER This baby needs to come out now. Its already been in there nine months. The timer is ringing, but the oven door is not opening.
YOUNGER It’ll come soon enough. Enjoy your pregnancy while it lasts, after delivery, you’ll want it back in there.
OLDER I never want to be pregnant again. Just wait until you have kids.
YOUNGER After its out, you’ll be all postpartum and depressed.
OLDER Yeah. I’m sure.
They age two years. Younger is pregnant.
OLDER So how’s the little bun?
YOUNGER Over done, its going to burn if it doesn’t come out soon.
OLDER It’ll come soon enough.
YOUNGER How do women do this more than once?
OLDER You’re asking the wrong person.
They age four more years. It is Christmas. The sisters watch as their kids play with their new toys on the floor.
OLDER Where did you get the Talkin’ Teddy. They have been sold out of every store since November.
YOUNGER July.
OLDER July? You bought Christmas presents in July?
YOUNGER Yeah. I thought it was ridiculous too. But now she’s going to be so popular at school.
OLDER You’re going to let her take it to school and get stolen?
YOUNGER No. But she’ll tell kids and then they’ll want to come over.
OLDER Do you really think that she should make friends because of a doll?
YOUNGER She needs friends. As long as they’re nice to her, it doesn’t matter how she makes them.
OLDER You had the same problem in grade school, you never kept friends long. Mom worried about it all the time.
YOUNGER She should have bought me one of those skip-it things.
OLDER Oh my god. I remember those awful death traps. Ha.
They are older. At Younger’s youngest daughter’s wedding.
YOUNGER She looks so beautiful.
OLDER She does.
YOUNGER I can’t believe all our children are married now.
OLDER I know.
YOUNGER And you’re a grandmother.
OLDER Not yet.
YOUNGER Okay. In a month.
OLDER And don’t forget that month. I’m holding on to this non-grandmother month as long as possible.
They are now Older(56) and Younger(54). Older is rubbing her hands and wrist in a clumsy way trying to push away the pain of one hand with a pained other hand.
OLDER The drugs aren’t working as well anymore.
YOUNGER Are you still on that study?
OLDER Yeah.
YOUNGER Are you sure you’re not getting the placebo?
OLDER I thought I was getting the drug. I had been doing so much better for a while.
YOUNGER I know. Can you stop the study? Do you have other options?
OLDER I’ve tried all the other options.
YOUNGER What does that mean?
OLDER I don’t know.
YOUNGER I’ll always be here for you. For anything. I love you.
OLDER I love you, too.

Number Five.
Thats a lot to post for one night. So I'm going to stop and I'm going to say good night.
GOOD NIGHT!!!