What has been waited for

What a glorious snowy day. Its warm and the snow is falling down in large fluffy chunks. Snow makes me irrationally happy. I just walk down the street with a huge smile on my face everytime it snows, then I remind myself I live in New York and need to scowl. So I scowl and find that funny and just end up smiling more. I'm pretty sure most people think I'm a little bit off (to be nice to myself) when they see my face going through this silly routine. Smile, scowl, giggle, smile, scowl and repeat on and on, until I give up.
I've only now realized how long it really has been since I've written. This is not good at all. The boy I keep making little allusions to and I seem very happy as of now. I'm very excited for this whole relationship (?). My friend scurveyseawench says that he is the nicest guy ever "and I'm not just saying that because he's my cousin." I agree, I don't believe I've ever met a nicer person in my whole entire life, seriously. He also makes me irrationally happy, so when I'm with him and its snowing, I'm bursting at the seams with happyiness. Its rather silly how happy it makes me. If you are wondering about the cousin comment. Yes, they are cousins, well sort of. They have a mutual cousin, so they are like cousins by marriage. Its pretty awesome.
The happiness just keeps pouring forth. Today I'm seeing "Spamalot", the musical based on Monty Python. Its going to be absolutely amazing. Well, if I can see it. I'm all the way up in the rafters, but I'm silly very excited about it. I'm sitting with Scurvyseawench and Countrybird, who I would like to say are the female loves of my life. I am straight, so they are the straight loves of my life. Tokentestosterone and Megacoporationman got the expensive tickets and although they are going tonight also, they're going to sit in the orchestra. Silly rich people. On one hand I'm jealous and on the other I'm not. Oh, well, the show should be amazing where ever I sit.

HAPPINESS
I would like to talk about happiness for a bit, as the midsection title suggests. Happiness is such an important part of every day life. Its not something you really notice or notice how it effects everything, until you don't have it. But when you have it back. WOW!! Everything is amazing. The whole world changes and reveals itself to you in ways you could never image possible. Everything is amazing and incredible and worth noticing. The way the snow clings to the trees, or the way your bes friend smiles when you see each other or smells. All types of smells. Even ones that seems foul before are funny and exciting, like sweat. It will tell you so much about a person. Also, the way light falls on the face of the person sitting across the table from you and the way he smiles as you talk about meaningless silliness. I love happiness. I want to swallow it and keep it forever and never let go. But because I've seen the other side, every moment I'm happy, I'm also waiting for it to crumble to dust in front of me again. So I say wait and I grab that happiness and I don't let it escape each moment its still there.